It's odd how time fly's by. Just felt like the other day that I was
sitting in a high school classroom goofing off and up to no good. Its even
crazier to think that one year ago the 26th, I lost one of the most important
parts of my life. The day that my grandma died I can remember everything almost
so clearly, it was like a nightmare happened. Although we were expecting it to
happen, I still wasn't quite ready for it. I was sitting in Coach Hoots class
when I got the text from my brother that she had passed on to heaven. Coach
Hoots, being the awesome guy that he is, walked me outside and said a prayer
with me. I believe everyday that God wanted me in that class when she passed
away, because God knew that I needed a prayer when I found out the news. I
wouldn't have ever thought to have prayed honestly. When he said that prayer
with me, I had a warm feeling in my heart that everything was okay. I had been
so scared that I was going to lose myself, go into depression and change
completely. After he said that prayer I went to my car and drove in the pouring
rain to Yadkin Medical Hospital, walked in and saw her lifeless body. In that
moment, I felt a sense of relief, a sense of happiness for her. She wasn't
struggling anymore, she wasn't struggling with swollen feet, or weakness, or
diabetes or aspiration. She was at peace, she was freed from the bondage of
sickness. I remember a voice in the back of my head that said "Tanner, if she's
at peace, why can't you be?" I swear everyday I know that was Heavenly Father,
that was also a confirmation that she was okay, she was looking down on me
smiling because she was out of pain and agony. This past year I had a lot of
reflecting to do on my life, the mistakes, the good and the bad. But one thing I
always took for granted is having my grandma around, and I wish I didn't. There
is a lot of things I wish I can tell her today, thank her for the things she did
for me, the life lessons that she has taught me and just for being the great
christian woman that she was. That example I will carry on for the rest of my
life. I was one of the lucky ones, still am honestly, but since she has passed
away I have come to realize the importance of family. I have come to cherish my
relationship with all the living family I have. It's so good to know that I have
a strong relationship with my mom, my grandpa, my dad, my brothers and sisters
and even my step family. These are the people that have my back no matter what
happens, these are the people who love me unconditionally. Just like my grandma
always told me "Your family will always be the center of happiness." If I could
replay my life, I would go back and spend more time with the family I haven't
seen as much, or that I haven't given as much attention to. My Mamma Kay, if I
had a do over I would have spent more time in the nursing home with her before
she got so far into alzhiemers, she did a lot for me growing up, matter of a
fact she did a lot for all her grandchildren, I was just too young to care.
Point is, now that I have lost someone so close to me that i have spent a lot of
time with, I just want all my family to know that I love them, and that you guys
mean the world to me. I know this mission isn't what was in store when I was
first born, I know we have different religious beliefs and that I am thousands
of miles away from home with no means of contact besides one letter and email a
week, but you guys are my family. Mom, grandpa, Dad, Pam, Travis, Jessica,
Riley, Karley, Michael, Cody, Deanna, Sarah, Matt, Dylan, Mamma Kay, Tara. You
guys are my family, and I am so glad I have your support. My grandma is in
heaven, and I want to say that although its been a year, it just feels like
yesterday you went on. Keep watching down over all of us and just know I love
you!
This week was fun! We had a general authority come speak to us. His name is
Elder Mervyn B. Arnold. Man was he a fun guy to listen to speak! He taught a lot
of us how to become better more improved missionaries. The more that he talked,
the more I felt the spirit. I felt compelled to sit near the back for some
reason, and I made the mistake of sitting right beside some guy that loved to
talk. He asked me about myself and I told him about being a convert and so on.
Elder Arnold was speaking about the importance of finding the elect and how it
cant affect the future family of a convert. The guy beside me stood up, and goes
"Elder Hutchens here is a convert, he is starting a new generation when he goes
home. Darn, I just had an ackward shout out. Then Elder Arnold told me to stand
up and share my conversion story. In front of literally half the mission I stood
up, red in the face, and started talking about how I came to know the church and
my future plans to have children and get married in the temple. Well if that
wasn't enough, he called on me 15 minutes later to walk up to the front and
stand there in front of all the missionaries. (I am almost positive that my face
was the color of my hair at this point) He asked me questions like, "What if
these missionaries didn't find you?" "Did you understand the importance of
baptism whenever you were days away from your baptism." I despise that Elder
that called me out, because I stood up there for what felt like 10 minutes just
talking. And I hate public speaking. Overall, Elder Arnold's visit here in the
WKM was an awesome one. He taught us a lot and really showed me how to become a
better missionary. Showed me that I have a lot to work on also.
This is the week of Alan Jones's baptism. He has been coming to church the
last two weeks and he really enjoys it! I am so excited for him, and I am so
excited to have been an instrument in the hands of The Lord in finding Alan and
bringing him back to The Lord's Kingdom. He has asked me to baptize him, and I
feel absolutely honored to do it. I guess its only appropriate if the North
Carolina hillbilly baptizes the North Carolina hillbilly :) But pray us and him
as he enters the waters of baptism!
Happy Thanksgiving guys, we have like oh I don't know...5 dinners Thursday
so lets hope I don't put on too much weight. You guys have a great holiday and I
love you guys! I have a lot to be thankful for, we all do. Just remember to
count your blessing and tell someone that you are thankful for that you love
them.
Con Amor,
Elder Hutchens
Philippians 4:13